it's like...

im still searching for words
to describe my feelings now.

it's like passing the exams
with a low score of 40.

it's like writing a story
without an ending.

it's like watching "goong"
with sejarah notes beside me.

it's like having a break
without knowing what to do.

it's like standing at the door
with one foot in and one foot out.

it's like eating rice
without veges and meat.

it's like going to school
with pyjamas on.

it's like drinking 100 plus
without using a straw.

yup,

i know this is complicated.
in fact, it is VERY complicated.
i never felt like this before.
but this is what i got myself into.
and now im here,
sitting in front of the computer,
staring at the screen,
with all the aforesaid feelings
jumping up and down inside me.
sigh and more sighs.
i just hope that god will tell me what to do.

p.s. i don't think anyone would understand what am i writing.
i don't know myself too.